shiet.
report bk tmr die x(

celebrating halloween
and our own chalet!!



I'M SUGAR AND SPICE
AND EVERYTHING NICE
BUT BEFORE YOU MESS WITH ME
YOU'D BETTER THINK TWICE

i walk a lonely road

jamie has never been afraid of results.
you know why?
primary school i excelled in school work.

OH WOW SHOCKER.

secondary school i heck care all my tests, because i've become so used to failing
oh trust me, i've tried pulling myself up
i'm just not good in aspects of school.
my parents were pushers in primary school..

NOT DRUG PUSHERS U ASS

they pushed me
and i strived to work hard.
topped the class

i took that for granted.
i took my marks for granted.

until i made the transition from primary to secondary..
oh boy how it changed my world

i became nerd to rebel
hanging out with friends were the most important thing in my life
family and work didn't matter.
only friends.

i failed everything.

well except my english.

yes i failed everything with the exception of english.
oh man.
i can't describe the feeling when u received ur first failure

it was sheer depression.
i stop hypering about small things like birthday parties
and such.

but soon, failing became routine.

i guess its too late now.
i've gotten used to failing.

but now.
E.O.Ys

my most important exam
my mid-life crisis

oh SUCK FEST.
joy~
i'm scared.
terrified.
afraid.
depressed..

all because i've not been studying.
i've no confidence in myself
i've no self esteem

oh damn.
this sucks.
seriously.

this is not improving my mood at all.
ranting on blogs don't change anything.

we're getting our results tmr.
our parents have to sign my report book!

how am i going to face them
family
friends
class

oh boy.
THIS SUCKS.

harlo ppl.. long time no blog.. hmm

today we had art exam
ydae stay up until 2 a.m. to finish all 3 pieces..
den wake up at 4 a.m. to complete and touch-up
den craigven geyi lucas they all talking alot of crap
lag my comp
cannot refer...
LOLS.

strange.
i dun feel tired..


HURS.
today someone cut her fringe horh?
still pin up never tie
look the same wad..
>.<

how despo.

GAH.
art exam was a breeze
so easy

i looked over to eric
HE HAD DRAWN LIKE 5 YELLOW HIBISCUS??

diao -.-''

hmm.
my art piece was crappy
pretty crappy..


-- thoughts --

hurs. before respecting other ppl.
RESPECT YOURSELF.

why don't you ever think about yourself?
why do you ALWAYS get hurt?
i have to accept the consequences.
its just NOT FAIR.

STOP IT
STOP IT.

you HAVE TO STOP.

but oh well
its your choice
whatever 'little' rituals you do?
dun expect me to get the ingredients

i don't do this kind of thing anymore

NOPE

so, well.
take my advice.
if u want to blow urself up,
be my guest

but i'm not interested

AT THE MOMENT.




cheerios.

+ curiouser and curiouser+

what am i living my life for?
no one respects me
treat me like i'm invisible
NO HERE NO THERE
i obviously don't belong.
JAMIE YOU ARE PSYCHO.

just accept that and move on.
see you're talking to yourself already.

ohmanns.
i'm totally bored.
i've finished about 10 movies altogether

: Titanic
: Lizzie MacGuire
: MIB 1 and 2
: Monster INC.
: Madagascar (courtesy of Rachel)
: Tomb Raider
: the WHOLE series of Lord of the Rings
: Finding Nemo
: The Animal
: Snow Dogs
: Spy Kids 1 and 2
: Mission Impossible
: Charlie's Angels

and now i'm currently watching Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets.

finished 3 bags of giant bags of potato chips and two 1.5l of coke.
i'm gonna die in 2 weeks..
ohmann.....

just now i was watching Sesame Street den when the Big Bird ( isit? ) was finding the number of the day or whatever, a stuffed elephant and another one of those loonies was dancing around and they asked Big Bird to ' hump with them '
hmm. what does it mean? HAHAHA. >.<

wowee this is interesting.
yea right.
i shall study statistics now...


yesterday i was out at orchard and i saw an owl.
imagine that!
an owl!
thats nice.. it was staring at me...

hmm...

anyway,
i have to complete my assessment books my mom bought for me
GRR
there is um um um... ALOT.

anyway..
adios


watch finish movie den i do work HAHA me slack.
tml is piano lesson...
shit have to see that smug-faced arsehole again.

now wad.
haven't even finish homework
never mind
who cares
theory sucks, as far as i'm concerned

x)

byebye.

I LOVE CHERYL AND RACHEL AND CAITLYN AND EMELIA AND WANER AND ZITING AND GEYI
and cheryl's piano books
>.<

ok that was random
heehee
bye
chiao
adios

FINAL BYE.
BYE

END OF EOYS!!

WOWEE TODAY WAS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE.
(hey just noticed my post thinggy is in place!)

after school me rachel and cheryl went BUGIS.
boogey boogey.
stella met her boyfriend.
stupid..
we walked outta school and saw this retard leaning against the railings.
everyone was staring at him like he was a freak or something
WAHHAHAA.

den when we were at the MRT station,
almost took to Jurong East
luckily rachel, being the smart one, spotted the mistake and guided us to the right MRT.

HAHA.

ANYWAY we went BUGIS!
boogey boogey.
x)
SO FUN.
went to KFC
den eat eat eat
YUMS.

after that, we had a tradition
upon finishing our meals, we noticed there were still some fries and sauce left.
we ripped out the packets
and proceeded to draw our initials in white boxes and napkins.
well rachel's napkin looked like... *ahem*
get my meaning
red + bloody

HAHA.
sicko.

den went upstairs!!
take neos.
lotsa lotsa neos!!!!!!!

HAHA
there was this machine where we could climb up on the bars
but the screen came down
and the snapshot was too fast
HAHA its was hilarious
we were all scrambling here and there

OH YEAH.
also met NanHua seniors.
they were nice HAHA.

cheryl bought a mag just coz' junyang was mentioned
den she forgot to bring it down from the neo shop.
CARELESS.
we didn't want to waste time so rachel bought her another one!!
how nice of her.

rachel also bought me BBQ sauce chicken.
how nice of her.
we saw our grandmama's pictures!!
( well, tell you a secret: actually it was Pamela Anderson and some hot models )
but what the hey!
it doesn't hurt to pretend that we are decendants from such hotties rite?
x)


then we were sick of taking neos.
cheryl bought earrings!!
black + white and rainbow ones
LIKE MINE!
but hers was too small.
cannot wear.

haha funnayye

after that we went heeren.
walk walk walk.
i was so sian
me and cheryl kept stopping at jewellery shops to see earrings
no mickey.
SOBS.

haha.
kept taking pics.
shall upload them later.
x)
there was this alley where there were pigeons strutting around.
i took pictures
rachel took pictures

den i started screaming at them
" RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!"

some flew away
HAHA cheryl said if there was a rapist he would be scared of me.
URPS HOW IRONIC.

gah.
we went heeren!!
WE TOOK MORE NEOS.
met beverly and gang.
so sui..
den we took another POLE DANCING neo.
this one was nicer
we could wrap around the pole like some pro
not like SOME PEOPLE
castrate themselves on the poles.

later we went to the basement and we bought drinks
looked at beads
so ex
can't afford although they were quite nice.


after that, took bus to clementi station.
we cut up our neos on the bus.

whee den took er... 188 to bukit batok!
BOWLING.
me and cheryl didn't belong to the HIGH CLASS place
we were so like dun belong
HAHA.

x)

anyway we changed our shoes and started bowling.
cheryl had beginner's luck

i started to get better on the second game
heehee.

but rachel won in the end.

=(

after that decided to go KboX...
went back home
i was changing.

den my mom came back
JOY.

she ask me where i was going
ohmanns...
i already told my dad now i have to tell her
how sianns..
she made me drink this gross soup
den lectured me
den my dad called me
and lectured me again.

FINALLY I COULD GO.
rachel shocked me at the lift
AHHHHHHHHHH!!!
MONSTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha rachel you monster.
went to bustop den got this parent ask us wat school we from..
replied politely

rachel was all charm and politeness
how perfect.
the parent liked us x)

biantaided.

heehee..

went KboX...
booked room 32
SMALL.

picked songs
we got a bit messed up because we didn't know how to operate the controls
p.s. the songs were very old.
at least have jolin!!

YAY!!
we sang really outta tune.

got peanuts
and coke
and green tea

enjoy! ~~
sang until around um.. 8??
cheryl thought she sounded horrible with the mic

so most of the time she didn't really use it.
she sounded nice!

rachel sound PROFESSIONAL.
ok not really HAHAHA.

i sounded like crap.

=((

ok my singing sucks.

BUT IM IN THE MILKIES!!!

me and rachel and cheryl = milkiieZ!!

wheehee..
every month we go Kbox to practice.
how nice.
this band is really SERIOUS.


anyway later the guy came in
looked at rachel and us like we couldn't pay
how childish
rachel tossed a $100 note to him
HAHA

we cracked up x)

heehee.
den went home

we all took cab
the cab driver was FRIENDLY!

ola.

went home
blog.

now my parent screaming at my brother for buying magic cards
i hate my brother
he doesn't do anything but waste money

at least a few hundred dollars wasted on magic cards
and he lets the water RUN while he's reading books in the toilet
on the air con whole day

HE THINK THAT WE'RE RICH
but please hello we're not.

my brother is like seriously retarded
hais..

can't stand him
gah..
shall go now

BYEBYE

TODAY WAS SERIOUSLY FUN. HOPE WE CAN DO THIS AGAIN.

ag dammit.
i noe i've been harping on and on about this 'thou shalt not be pissed' stuff
and well, philosopical stuff (did i spell it correctly?)
yes i noe i've been harping on and on aimelessly,
but today i was REALLY pissed off.

and on such a nice day too.

and pissed off at some worthless mindless adults.
i am childish.
sorry..

BUT.
i am happy.
i scared my piano teacher off


YAYS.
he scolded me for not doing homework.
i was like HELLOS this wk is final year exams
40% of marks counted.

he was like SO?
" i dun care u must finish my work before you do anything else. "

WTF
what is his damn problem?
does he know that academic results are much more important than theory?
huh.
wad does he know.
after all, i think he's just jealous coz' his pri and sec sch results are worse then mine.
WAHAHHA

ANYWAY.
i was so pissed off
and trying hard not to cry
so i didn't answer any questions he asked me.
he started poking me.
HARDD.
IT WAS PAIN OK.
den he started insulting me.
calling me stupid and dumb and idiot....

HELLOS.
only my friends can call me that.
im not joking.

SO.
being the GREAT ACTRESS i was,
i let some tears escape from my down cast eyes.
and glared hatefully at him.

finally he got so pissed off that he shoved my book towards me
AND JOY!!
he asked me to GO.

wowee.
after all, one must respect elders.
the rule only kicks in a appropiate times
of course
i listened to him
AND LEFT PROMPTLY.

grabbed my chem file and locked myself in bathroom.
study.
until my mom started screaming at me.
den i came out after 20 mins.
YAY most of my class was over by them.

AND the ASSHOLE was teaching my bro.
i went to my room.
to slack it all off.

JOYY!!!
i am so mountain.

agree??
x)

(oh yes they said if you post any discrimating words about teachers on your blogs you can get sued? HA. come sue me. think i scared isit. he's not gonna b my teacher anymore. he's gonna be FIRED. )


another person who have the great honour of getting pissed off and pissed on by ME.
MY FATHER.

what does he know about me?
NOTHING.
NOTHING AT ALL.

somemore admonish wad crap about typing out your notes
DOESN'T HELP.
maybe it doesn't help HIM because he's either too smart,
or just a dumb wooden unfeeling BLOCKHEAD.
yes thats right.
its an INSULT.

does it penetrate your numb skull?
or does it just float around your head like a irritating fly.

UGHS.
u suck ok.
i dun like you putting me down at every possible second.
thank you for like, financially supporting me
but please. grow up.
BE A NICE FATHER TO ME
THANK YOU VERY MUCH.


-- nice memories --

wells. today me, rach, cheryl and stella came over.
we.. ums.. SANG.
crap.
i play piano.
and they sang so much crappy stuff that i could not hear my piano
not that i minded anyway.
it was all junk
AND FUN!!

we did an MTV of Tong Hua.
Rachel filmed my *ahem*
and stella acting cute.
and cheryl trying to squeeze her fat bum in between us.
and at the end
ALL CRY
how nice x)

we're planning to have a better recording system
not record on rach's fone.
coz it SUCKS.
oops.
HAHA lols.
er..
yea

then we photocopied some songs from my books and cheryl's
it turned out BLACK.
um...
yes
and i still have to try and sort out all the song sheets.

joy...

speaking of joy,
at least i can retain my insanity
by pissing people off.
=)
WHOOPS.
my biggest secret
let outta da bagg.

SO.
stella's bugging me now for chem notes.
shall not give her
can't anyway since mine's in hardcopy.

SORRY.
=(

byebye .
shall study now.

hmm. is anyone elses 'create post' thingyy misplaced? mine is. its like, located DOWN DOWN DOWN so i can't do color of fonts or stuff. sad. maybe some day when i feel like it i shall try and figure it out. UGHS.

MAJOR SUCKS.

well. links. i shall put links in my blog. now u ppl shall be HAPPIE!!
haha jk.

anyway.
byebye my precious a1s...
takkaire...:(

my geog marks just died.
*sigh*
and the worst thing was,
I STUDIED.
JOY~

rachel gave me a pink piggy!!
ILU RACHEL
pigs can flyyy!!!!

heyya jiayu
x)
ilu too.

ok cheryl
dun complain.
ziting and geyi and alot alot alot
dun complain. HAHAH
i love u guys

>.<

why am i suddenly so weirdish?

sorry.
that was totally random.

PMS?
nah dun think so.

anyway.
art.
hmms art.
ART!

die.
x)


ums. study hist.
try to memorise Raffles
and the old fart.

UGHS, not like our future bosses gonna test us on geog.
and history.
for our job interview.

and we study 30 chapters around there la.. give and take.
and WTF holy crappers only give us 10 chapters of questions.

* SHAKE HEAD
and to think i stretched my brain capacity to the limit just to learn geog??
* SHAKE SHAKE HEAD
anlin winarto jianlong, STOP SMIRKING.

OK
so my brain capacity is not enough..

why can't singapore have those free makeover programs
like HOUSE RENOVATION
or XTREME MAKEOVER
or like

FREE MONEY!!

singapore has like
NO ORIGINAL IDEAS
and please
im not discriminating

LOOKIE HERE:
- american idol
[singapore idol + william hung]
- amazing race (well, at least they came to Singapore??)
- X-Treme makeover
[Villa Wellness] (heck, some of them aren't even fat. and some of them are so fat the even if they attended that wellness show, it wouldn't do much good. OH HONESTLY..)


well well well...
even Singapore's drama series
have you noticed
everything follows the SAME OLD PLOT?
esp. all the channel 8 shows.

bad guys v.s good guys
got chio bu
got kingdom
got rivalry

FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!!!!!!

someone die.
(preferably the chio bu)

heroes accuse each other.
FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT
for the kingdom
and throne
or a title
or smthing

HECK MY ROOM HAS ANTS
seriously they are throwing my concentration off.
wait later blog.

shall find their nest.

DIE ANTS!!

bye.
for now.